Current mood:	ehh
Current music:	rage against the machine - born of a broken man

J	Joyful
E	Edgy
S	Square
S	Special

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1. PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS OUT, NOW HOW DID YOU GET IT? the connected letters RS next to my thumb. i carved it over and over over a period of two months.
2.WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? random photographs, red duct tape, five framed unicorn art things from my old houses and such, an amazing unicorn/pegasus/stellar painting on on a backframe of wood that jess gave me, a mountain/sunrise landscape inside a silver frame made of sand, a huge horizontal metallic framed poster of three wolves, three incubus posters, a matrix reloaded poster, and a kurt poster.
3. WOULD YOU RATHER PLAY FOOTBALL OR WATCH IT? .... fuck both.
4. WHAT SPORT WOULD YOU SAY YOU ARE BEST AT? fuck that.
5. WHAT IS/WAS YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE? hm.
6. WHAT DO YOU DO TO EXERCISE? walk? a lot?
7. APPLES OR ORANGES? either.
8. GRAPES OR WATERMELON? eitherrr!
9. WOLVES OR TIGERS? i love both. wolves moreso.
10. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? rock.
11. HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN POETRY? yes
13. DO YOU REMEMBER BIRTHDAYS? sometimes
14. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? it seems i have forgotten
15. DO YOU HAVE A BIRTHMARK, WHERE? back of my leg, on my palm
16. WOULD YOU CALL YOURSELF A ROMANTIC PERSON? in a different perspective
17. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE? oh snap, ask around
18. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU STARTED FILLING THIS IN? drinking soy milk in my kitchen
19. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GUM? OUCH! and eclipse.
20. FAVORITE CHOCOLATE? ehhhhh
21. FAVORITE CANDY (NON CHOCOLATE)? starbursts
22. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ICE-CREAM? vanilla
23. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING LEATHER? belt, wallet.
24. FAVORITE COLOGNE? i really dont care
25. FAVORITE PERFUME? green tea byyyy arden i think
26. DO YOU OWN A INSTRUMENT? no. i fucking dont. OH! a harmonica. haha
27. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON SOMEONE (OPPOSITE SEX)? hair, i'd like to say eyes but i cant look at them when i 'first notice someone', er.. the way that they carry themselves
28. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? vanilla
29. FAVORITE SOUND THAT YOU HEAR OFTEN? music.
30. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING RIGHT NOW? i want to be somewhere else.
31. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? yes.
32. COULD YOU EVER SEE YOURSELF MOVING FROM WHERE YOU ARE NOW? yes.
33. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY MOVIE OF ALL TIME? *shrug* i used to love the lion king.
34. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME? ... thats fucking impossible for me
35. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR WHEN YOU WERE TEN? blue
36. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? green
37. DO YOU OR HAVE YOU EVER SLEPT WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? used to
38. IF SO WHAT WAS/IS IT'S NAME? i dont rememberrrrr..... i had simba for awhile, and that nameless bunny
39. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE? err.
40. MOST EMBARRASSING CHILDHOOD MOMENT? *shrug*
41. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?: *laughs*
42. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO SOMEONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?: personality, humor, opinion, reaction, eyes.
43. WHO OUT OF YOUR FRIENDS HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST? dayzzz!
44. WHO OUT OF YOUR FRIENDS HAVE YOU KNOWN THE SHORTEST? errrr...
45. WHAT IS THEIR BIRTHDAY AND MIDDLE NAME? ... meh
46. SUNRISE OR SUNSET? sunset
47. WHERE AT? somewhere that isnt industrialized.
48. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES OF THIS YEAR? matrix, rotk
49. CAN YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT? not... really.
50. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? si, yo hablo shitty espanol.
51. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)? a bracelet
52. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER? maynard, boyd, billie joe
53. FAVORITE BAND(s)? look at my fucking info
54. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ? books on a topic that interests me. imagine that
55. DO YOU LIKE POETRY? yes.
56. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE? vanilla creamerrrrrr!
57. WHAT PHRASE DID YOU OR DO YOU USE? many... i dont know... 'oh snap!' has certainly grown on me. i say 'H. christ' a lot, too.
58. DRAGONS OR DINOSAURS? dragons
59. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: eighteen.
60. WOULD YOU PREFER TO GO ICE SKATING OR ROLLER SKATING? neither.
61. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? cait, jess, j
62. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? close/small minded people. people who feel that words are completely necessary.
63. HAVE YOU EVER DIALED THE PERSON YOU LIKE'S PHONE NUMBER AND THEN HUNG UP? no

my aunt and uncle are driving down here for dinner and spending the night. i smell meatloaf. -vomit.-
jasper has been internally bleeding since monday. crystal was put down last month. what next?

dullllllllll. i'm grounded bounded. (to my house.)
five week reports came in sunday. i got a gym, math, and history. yeeeeah. so its this... i must come home from school monday-thursday and stay home for the next few weeks.
i'm just so frustrated.. but i'm just fucking tolerating it. i know. i've learned. i'm beyond that point. just do it, dont say anything. fuck it.
i miss j. i miss being with him until the end of the day.

i've discovered i just cant do that anymore - stay home this much. for the sake of my fucking sanity. (okay, maybe sanity isn't the best word to use in my case... i am a fucking case.) the days of silently ignoring and not allowing things to phase me, pretending that i'm fine until i convince myself that i am are done.
'you going anywhere special?'
(quizzical look) er, no.
'well, you're not wearing an ugly black shirt so i thought you wanted to impress someone...'
i knew that was coming when she asked that after i randomly changed my shirt when i came home.

just... her constant voice is enough. its like chewing tin foil. i can block it out well enough with music when i'm home inside a room, but ... well enough isn't enough.
she always has something to say... always a negative comment or statement or observation...
just stop